Believe it before you see it.

I often experience the feeling of just wanting to 'get there'. I want to fix myself and my life in so many ways. I'm aware that I'm 'here', but I'd rather be 'there'. I’m often striving to feel better, be better, more worthy. I want MORE.

But what would happen if I changed those thoughts?

What if I deliberately chose to feel that everything in my life is perfect right NOW? What does it look and feel like to believe I HAVE enough? How does it feel to believe I AM enough or I AM worthy?

It’s easy to say 'well, once my finances are stable, once I find the perfect lover, once I find an inspiring career, once I have a healthier relationship with food.. THEN I will feel more peaceful.. THEN my life will be perfect.'

But it doesn’t work that way! You won't get what you want if you feel like it's missing.

As human beings we are always expanding. We’re ALWAYS going to come up with new desires. And the key is to appreciate where you are NOW, while feeling eager for more, and trusting that it WILL come into your experience at the perfect time.

Enjoy the fun that's happening now! Take the time to appreciate the steps you ARE taking, the moments you ARE loving. And when you think forward to what you DO want, feel the excitement as if you already have it now.

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what would YOU do with $30 million?

I’m feeling lucky. And by lucky I really mean fortunate, grateful, worthy, blessed, abundant, excited.. however you want to describe it… it’s a good feeling place!

I come from a family that ‘wins’ often. Contests, draws, prizes, games – it’s almost become a joke with our friends. I hear people say ‘you guys always win!’. And it’s true.. but what does this all have to do with ‘luck’ anyway?

If you think about ‘winning’ and the Law of Attraction, then you probably think things happen because of our beliefs, thoughts, and feelings. That's how I see it. And if it happens often, you're more likely to believe it and see it happen again and again.

I love studying contestants on game shows. Often, I can see a direct link between the way they speak and act, and how ‘fortunate’ they are on the show. I recently saw an extremely grateful and excitable woman on the Price is Right. I could just FEEL that she already felt like a winner – before she actually won any of the prizes(she even fainted before she found out she won the big show case at the end!). At one point, when Drew Carey asks if she felt ‘lucky’, and she answered, “I am SO blessed ALL of the time. Thank you!”.. and then she won a car! It goes to show, you gotta believe it before you see it!

I already feel SO grateful for the abundance that I constantly get to enjoy in my life! I love spending pockets of moments, appreciating everything around me and so many inspiring projects and ideas going on in the world. I look forward to contributing to more of them each year. I’m excited to be in a place where I feel extremely FREE, and I'm eager to continue creating a more exciting life each day! And do I need to win the lottery to continue feeling abundant and grateful? Nope. But the idea of winning has led to some exciting thinking! And I know that the feelings that are coming up will definitely benefit me, no matter what happens. It's a way to pay it forward and to allow more excitement to keep on comin'!

So here’s the deal. I feel a big ‘win’ coming on. And I wanted to share the win with a close friend. One of the reasons being, I find it just as easy to be happy for someone else - wanting good things to happen to others that I care about. I put a few feelers out to a couple friends recently, asking if they were interested playing with me. My idea was for each of us to buy a lottery ticket, and then if either of our tickets win, we’d split the pot. I was waiting for a really excited reaction from a friend.. like REALLY excited. Gung-ho excited. I wanted someone who actually believed we could win. So on my third try, I found the reaction I was looking for. And she’s someone who I consider a soul sister in many ways. Perfect.

I was excited because tonight's draw is listed for $30 million dollars. 30 has been a number I’ve been really focussing on for the past few months. I felt a HUGE shift in my thinking toward feelings of complete FREEDOM on January 11, 2010 (the day I decided to quit my government job). When written out, I saw the date as 01/11/10 or 011110. In binary code, it represents the number 30. And I read that 30 in numerology means ‘the perfect balance in the cosmic organization’. Cool! I’m also in my 30th year right now. And I just found out the draw is actually for $29.9 million.. and I calculated how old I am today. Guess how old? 29.9. whew!

So tonight is the night. Do I think I have a chance to win? Yep! What are my odds? Well since you either win or you don’t, I’d say my odds are 50%. And with my friend also holding a ticket, our chances have doubled. Sweet. The brainstorming is done. I have BIG plans for the BIG win! It has been hilarious perfecting my ‘ecstatic dance’ (Lotto Max is even more exciting than the happy dance for Lotto 649!). My favourite place to practice has been in front of a mirror on my mini trampoline. ha ha..

So now that I feel aligned, it’s time to allow the Universe to let it all happen! And the beauty of it is, I’m not attached to the outcome.. I am content with where I’m at. I love that this has encouraged me to feel abundant and excited.. and from that, SO many good things are coming my way!

Happy FRIDAY!

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honouring Terry Fox

One of my best friends sent me a message to remind me that it was 30 years ago today that Terry Fox started his journey across Canada with the goal of raising money for Cancer research! Wow! An incredible beginning to such an inspiring story! Today, over $500 million has been raised in his name.

I LOVE Terry Fox, always have. I keep a $1 Terry Fox coin by my computer workstation so I can see it every day. I’ve read books, watched the movie, tv specials, and love participating in the annual run. His story still brings me to tears. I couldn’t believe that a guy in his early twenties with ONE LEG decided to run a marathon a day across Canada to raise awareness. He ran 143 consecutive days of marathons! To me, his story is the definition of inspiring!

I loved reading notes from his journal that he kept along his journey. I felt like I ‘got to know him’ and I remember reading that on my exact birth date (May 25, 1980), Terry wrote that it was a beautiful sunny day, and that it was the best-feeling day of his run, to date! I loved knowing that he was feeling so good on the day I was born! It brought me to tears.. as that marked the start of a really big journey for me too!

Before heading off to University in 1999, I was awarded the Terry Fox Humanitarian Award. It was a $20,000 scholarship, honouring my involvement in humanitarian volunteer work, physical activity, and academics. I remember feeling overwhelmingly honoured – definitely because of the generous monetary gift, but I remember feeling so grateful to feel even more connected to someone that I loved, admired, and respected so much! I still feel the same way today.

And ‘funny’ how things work out, I was diagnosed with cancer in January of last year. Another reason to feel even more connected to Terry and his work. I knew that (like Terry) this would be an exciting journey for me and that everything would be ok.. and it is! It always is! Reading about his story again is inspiring me to really consider what type of ‘work’ I’d like to do in my life. I’ve gone through some really incredible experiences.. so the opportunity is definitely there to inspire others! I just love knowing that I am eager, excited, and ready to do BIG THINGS in this lifetime!

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becoming the YOU you love

Here are two inspiring messages that came my way today. I love comparing their words and stories to my life story.. and it's exactly what I wanted to hear! Inspiring messages from inspiring women, just in time for Easter, representing new beginnings! Enjoy!

“Today is known as Easter Saturday, the day between the crucifixion and the resurrection of Jesus. A few years ago the question came to my mind what did He do on Saturday?

Saturday could not have just been a wasted day, just a day between the crucifixion and the resurrection without some meaning… I began to consider the possibility that this is the period of time required for the reconstruction of the new life.

This is a day of letting go of what has been and the inviting in of what can be.

I think we can each personalize that. There are things today that we can let go of. Things that are really not a part of the life we want to live.

If I could just invite you to join me today in noticing any places where there may be resentment or hurt that we can release. We say heal my heart. Make my life new so that tomorrow when we get up and begin to celebrate Easter Sunday, the Resurrection, the brand new life; that we bring our whole self into the celebration. Have a great Easter Saturday.”


Mary Morrissey
Daily Dream Builder




Knowing Who You Are
Those of us who are utterly focused on food and weight never consider that we are ignoring the most obvious solution. We tell ourselves that the answer is Out There and our job is to keep looking, to never give up until we find the right solution. One month it's about white foods. Then it's about brain chemistry. Finding the right drug. The fat gene. LAPBAND surgery. Being addicted to sugar. Eating for our blood type. Alkaline and acid-forming foods. Although attending to one or some of these issues might indeed ease our struggle, we use the hunt for answers to abdicate personal responsibility -- and with it, any semblance of power -- for our relationship with food. Underlying each frenzied bout of passionate involvement in the newest solution is the same lack of interest in acknowledging our own part. The same conviction that “I don't have the power to do anything about this problem.” We want to be done, we want to be fixed. But since the answer is not where we are looking, our efforts are doomed to fail.

Freedom from obsession is not about something you do; it's about knowing who you are. It's about recognizing what sustains you and what exhausts you. What you love and what you think you love because you believe you can't have it. During the first few months after I stopped dieting some thirty years ago, any food or way of eating (in the car, standing up, sneaking) that spaced me out, drained my energy, made me feel terrible about myself, soon lost its appeal. It quickly became apparent that eating was always about only one thing: nourishing the body. And this body wanted to live. This body loved being alive. Loved moving from place to place. Loved being able to see, hear, touch, smell, taste -- and food was a big part of how I could do that. It became apparent that the way I ate was another way to soar.

You can sneak food, for instance, hide what you eat from friends and family, but you can also sneak your true feelings. You can lie to people about what you believe, what you want, what you need. And you can examine your life by either looking at the way you live or the way you eat. Both are paths to what is underneath and beyond the eating: to that in you that has never gotten hungry, never binged, never gained or lost a pound.

Geneen Roth
Women, Food, and God
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=82Znw2UYH4c

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what works for me.

I’ve been wondering how to start up my blogging again after a weee bit of a vacation.. and I realized, how I've been doing is actually irrelevant! All that matters is how I feel now, and what I'm looking forward to! But it's always fun to recap the best moments and lessons learned..

I ended up heading to Toronto last weekend to hit up the Yoga Conference and one of my best friend’s 30th birthday celebrations! With some definite ups and downs, overall, a great weekend (including classes by Sadie Nardini and Mark Laham, buying a new yoga mat, quality time with incredible friends, funny tees, partying it up in a limo, and dancing up a storm). Great drives both ways too – lots of stretching and grooving to my fave tunes!

My biggest lesson over the last week is to really allow all sorts of feelings to come up – whether I’m feeling sad, worried, scared, it’s ALL ok! They're there to let me know about my alignment with my greatest self.. I loved realizing that those negative feelings really aren’t very familiar to me. So when they do show up, I can definitely feel the discomfort of them. It’s actually a really helpful reminder for me.. ‘oh ya!.. THAT’s what fear feels like.” And from there, I can always move my thoughts into a better-feeling place. It feels good to deliberately make that shift (I actually felt myself make a big shift yesterday!). And in the end, it makes the happy/ excited/ good-feeling ME feel THAT much better (what a relief)!

For an update on my eating plan.. I don’t have any sort of ‘rules’ in place right now. I'm just doing what's best for ME. I’ve decided that I’m taking my focus off of food for a little while. My diet probably won’t look very different than it has over the past few months (for the most part Body Ecology styles and more raw foods), but I’m taking any sort of mental ‘pressure’ off of myself. Fruit is ok. Cooking is ok. And dare I say it, bread is even OK!! What you choose to eat is definitely important.. but HOW YOU FEEL about what you’re eating is even more important.. so no judging, no rules, no fear, no guilt.. only LOVE!.. and THAT is the best recipe for success!

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